Friday, May 16, 2008

3650 后的今天

3650 后的今天, 真的好想问你, 你好吗?
应该说, 那年后的每一个今天, 我都好想问你, 这一句话!

曾经想过, 就到今天, 一切就在明天后结束.
原来, 一转眼, 就到了今天. 所以, 我想, 再多一个3650, 又有什么关系呢?

我一直认为, 你是故意的, 因为你呀, 一直都太寂寞了.
所以呀, 你因该是自私的想, 如果这样, 我们都不回把你忘了吧!

, 你还真厉害. 因为, 这样一来, 大家都把它记牢了!
其实你大可不必这样劳心, 我们心里呀有你, 根本不回忘了.
不管怎样, 永远都会把你放在心里的, 你也太小家子气了吧?

所以, 7300 的今天, 可以不可以听你亲口对我说, “, 祝你生日快乐” ?
因为呀, 我真的好就好就都没有听你亲口对我说这一句话了.

今天的你, 可还好吗?

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

HXXXY! Seems like leaving me...

I told you that I am downcast/depress recently, I got nothing to do and don't know what to do with my life. I was asking myself this question a few times, a few days. I have even doubt on myself what is the main reason i had this kind of bad feeling. It's true, i got no answer. I really can't tell.

Sometimes, i will think it is just normal. Every1 will has this kind of feeling and it won't last long. It was the N times i has asking myself same question after few days lately. I can't even recall...But, i really felt tired for continously asking myself this stupid question so frequently...So, what can i do for myself?

I did try to do some of the activities to make sure i have fully utilizes my free time and maximise the spare time, but it seems i was failed to do so. I ponder if these will help...

- reading to make sure i am gaining some knowledge? So i can tell myself, i am a useful person
- calling friends to maintain friendship? To make sure, i still have lots of friends who are they standing by with me?
- watching TV programs, news? To make sure i am alive, know how to laugh, know how to cry, know there are more ppl facing worse situation than me?
- doing house chore, exercise? So, i wont have more times to think on negative thing?
- writing blogs to relief my bad feeling? Looking for outsource and seeking for help?

Those are not really useful, i don't feel better when i went through every single step. Eventually, I still felt the isolation, loneliness, hopelessness. Is there anything goes wrong with me?

I was telling you, but the only answer that you replied to me is "Pls find out the answer yourself, you are the only1 who know what's going wrong, pls get yourself out from there!"