Is a start of Nightmare or Sweat dream?

4/22, 16:00
SS : Fionn, do you have some time now? Would like to have a short discussion with u...
FL: ok, so which room shall we meet?
SS: booking the room, at robertson quay
FL: ok, meet u there

16:10
SS: Jo, is going to have her maternity leave on Aug, we are going to have a minor restructure on the team's account and it will affected you too.
FL: ok
SS: I am planning to give you some challenging accounts which you might be afraid to take over, so i would like to know that do you think you are ready for that?
FL: Honestly, i dont really know how tough and challenging will the accounts be, ( my heart is beating very fast, i'm a bit nervous in fact, i really hope there are not D & B), but if you think you would like to assign the job to me, i will be taking over whatever assignment, and i will do my best...
SS: Ok, good, actually i would like to assign D & B to you, not only as back up during her absent, but eventually, it will become your new "baby". Once she is back, she will be taking care of another new account too. I know it might be a bit tough for you, however, i really think that, it is a good time for you to learn more. As you know, whenever there is a challenge, you will grow up in a fast pace. Sure, i will be helping/ guiding you too (My heart is calling for SOS)
FL: Ok, will do my best and i think you also know where my level of standard . I think i will really learn a lot and gain more experience from there...
SS: No problem, i believe you can do that, i know you got a weakness in your English since B is a US company, you can only use English to deal with them, not like the rest of the ODM, we speak mandarin with them which the company are from Taiwan and China.
FL: Yes, i got a phobia to speak English in front of ppls, that is the worse part that i worry/afraid abt...
SS: So, this time you got no excuse, you have to be thick skin to speak in English, then i am sure you will grow up from there
FL: Haha...Perhaps so...(My goodness, why i am so luck hor?)
SS: Anyway, i will watch out closely for you, no worries.
FL: Ok

There is a discussion with JO 2 hours ago, we did talk about this as well, but really it is unexpected...

14:00
JO: During my maternity leave, I think SS will assigning R for you, since you are doing the APAC portion, so there won't be a problem if i hand over US and EMEA to you. You work with R so closely
FL: I think so, but how abt your rest of the problematic ODM?
JO: I don't think she won't pass it to you, the D & B are really problematic ODM, rigid, calculative and some of the working really got worker attitude. I believe she will get some1 more experiences and tough to deal with them, shall be XX or AA kua...
FL: Yaya, since i am still very new and lack of experiences, I believe she will assign to some1 else, i think she don't dare to pass that account to me, later she got to put much afford to watch out on me.

4/23 10:30
After the discussion with my " female & male consultant" over the night...I got more confident in myself, i hope that i really can pass through the process, even if it will be painful, pressure and bitter. I think it is really a time for me to get more exposure and i will become better in term of my working experience, to be more confident in speaking English etc...I can't keep waiting for some1 to feed me with the spoon all the time.

Nightmare or Sweat dream? Pls take note, I am step into a bigger stride now.