I'm so hesitated

I'm so hesitated...
I don't know shall i start now? The market is so worse and there is recession where way. Also, my company business is not that stable, no1 here can warranty no lay off will be announced in the next 6 months.

I'm so hesitated...
If i am not going to start from now, when will be the right time. Will i have chance and the motivation to go with it again? Since i do not have much family commitment, why don't i start it now?

I'm so hesitated...
Most of my saving will be gone to drain due to the wedding. My saving will start from scratch from next Jan onwards. All of them have been used for those ANG POW! Haiz!

I'm so hesitated...
The dead line is on tomorrow. Even paying by credit card, it will be 400plus per month and up to 12 months. Can i pass through this "famished" life in this 12 months? So, i can't afford to dream on getting any branded stuffs, my desired honeymoon & additional entertainment expenses.

I'm so hesitated...
What shall i do now?