Baby...

Sometimes, i have a very strong desired to have baby.
I think it is because i wish i would have the experince/ chance to being a mother. As a woman, i think tt is really a special and cherish experince that given by the GOD.
But, i feel dilemma also especially when i was playing around with them. There will always has 2 different type of voices come out from my mind. It happened when they are smiling naively or crying non-stop without any reasons towards me. If they were smiling, i will think how wonder it will be if i got such the cutest baby. Whereas, if they were crying; i prefer i stay alone so i wouldn't need to think on this kind of frustrating situation.
Anyways, as per promise with him. We won't plan to have baby within this 2 years. So, i better to think on how to enjoy and utilise my time before the arrival of the baby...